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07 February 2010 @ 05:13 pm
... My heart, that is. Just a few days ago, it was lower than low. I suppose I did that to myself, but it's natural. I closed myself off, and the gaping hole I was digging in my own chest was starting to feel like a grave. *sighs* But that's over right now. :3

You know, I should probably have more of an update than that, but I post all the other places I go on my profile. If you've even been the slightest curious and industrious, you would have ended up at my YouTube and had been laughing at my naturally helium-ified voice. :P

In any case, I had been sick a week or so back. Flem, sneezing, sore throat, all that. Wasn't pretty, but I lived.

Got back into Furcadia. Expect some vids of that... maybe. :3 It seems to call you back every now and then, so, yeah, I guess now was the time. :P

Job is really starting to urk me. It's nothing that can't wash off the duck's back: I just have to remember that the world at large is like High School for the rest of your life to varying degrees. There's this one guy, 40-years-old, you'd think he was 4 the way the others pushed him around and made fun of him. All kinds of the usual homophobic gay-jokes. It's not like they don't do this to each other: it's their way of hazing the males there, I think.

They try a similar, non-sexual of jokes on me, I threw back a line about having a bingo book to know who to kill. (I use a small journal as a wallet. sue me. :P) In order to confuse the enemy, you must play their game and play on their fears. Or show them that you can joke and kid, too, and that you're not made out of glass. Either way, they mellowed out, p.d.q. Even mentioned that I'm more of a guy than the 40-year-old. >:3... ... ... Not sure how to take that, actually. -_-;... Whatever... :P


Meh. :P

Thank you, and have a nice day. :3
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Current Music: X-mix (Zanac Remix)
10 January 2010 @ 01:16 pm
You know, you'd think I'd toss a site and stop trying to run too many things at any given time. But then I'd just be bored out of my skull, trying to keep my mind busy and hating the world more than any emo properly should. So there you have it. My excuse for posting only about once every week or so.

Been busy trying to slap together an LP. A "Let's Play" that is. Trying to do at least one that no one has ever done before, and other little ones so that I have some variety in my uploads. I just personally have this thing about posts that mimic each other too closely. Which is why I'm a little hesitant to do an JRPG or a Shoot-Em-Up: screenshots might start to mimic one another. Yay, OCD...-_-; What I should really do is decide whether I want to redo my Phantasy Star Zero on an emulator that craps up sound an possibly 3D graphics. Meh, I'll try it later and see what I get... I dunno, could you take a few hundred vids like this?...

Now that I have something resembling an occupation, it's been harder to sit down and write or draw anything. The LPing is fun, but it's not what I ultimately want creatively. This problem requires a schedule. A loose one so that I don't lose my ever-loving mind. One that I can squeeze at least an hour's worth of actual work into. You know, MY work. The kind with pencils and inking and coloring.

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Thank you and have a nice day. :3
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28 December 2009 @ 03:23 pm
"O, god, one word title. That means she's going to be all metaphorical again..."

Maybe I am, and maybe I'm not. I guess you're just going to have to see, huh?

*brikd for being an ass*

... Well, I can't help it. One second, I'm doubled over in pain, the next I'm foaming at the mouth dooming the world with dooms of doomy-dooms. I seriously need to find some kind of hormone treatment for this. I don't think this is just a slight change of mood.

This used to be fun. It used to eb fun to want to kill everything in sight. To imagine their deaths one by one, bloody massacres, errant explosions, slow drownings and suffocations... hmm... I'm starting to see why I scared people in high school.

Gotta call the agency and excuse myself. Or not. It's so late in the day, what would it matter? And then I still don't know if I can bring myself not to do anything nuts tomorrow. Damnit; I blame catholic school.

Thank you and have a nice day.
Current Mood: bitchybitchy
Current Music: Miyazaki Ayumi - Break Up
14 December 2009 @ 01:38 pm
I feel like I should be dead. I got up, answered a butt-load of questions on questionnaires, and had to brave the cold of early morning. Yup, if this doesn't count as 'doing something', I don't know what does.

*brikd for complaining*

Music. Need it, want it, love it. I just feel so drawn to music right now. This morning, I danced and trotted around to this before I had to go. At the bus stop, I finally remembered the band I wanted to look up (The Outline). And now, other than drawing and watching LPs, all I REALLY feel like doing is listening to and downloading music. Like a hyperactive kid with little else to do but bop around in their seat.

Dance, dance... >:3

Thank you, and have a nice day.
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Current Music: Jenny Rom - Senorita (Speedy Mix)
11 December 2009 @ 09:23 am
Seriously, it is pin-drop quiet. I could probably yiff and scream and moan and no one would even know. <.<... >.>...

*brikd for even thinking that*

It is Friday. And the reason I say this is that the job agency that I was going to see today only holds registration Monday through Thursday. So... yeah. Standing out in the freezing cold for 15 minutes, at 5am, befor having something like that dawn on you is SO the way to start the day. :P

As of late I have been questioning the nature of my own rantings. Yes, is it is good to share, but should it be done so often that the mind starts to numb over in the repetition? Is it ever wrong to hold it all in? is it wrong to let it all out? Is it ever right or wrong to begin with?

Mmmmmmmeh... 9_9;;;

Thank you, and have a nice day.
Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
04 December 2009 @ 11:10 pm
Oh, grief. I don't need to log onto JL and see that in about two weeks I'm going to be 26. I just don't. -_-;

*briked for being all doom and gloom*

Doesn't matter. It's going to happen whether I like it or not. I wonder if anyone is even going to care? See, this is why I don't even bother with holidays. Not they way everyone else bothers with them...

... Mostly because this is what usually happens to me. Figuratively speaking, of course.

Been laying off the games for a bit. A day or two, is all. Really, I've been spending my time absorbed in random interwebs poop and trying to re-do a resume. Honestly, neither is hitting the spot, but that goes without saying. I'm going to be needing something that remotely resembles fun soon, else I might be needing a straight jacket in the near future.

Going to write for a while, as well. My dreams have me utterly filled with ideas and plot twists. Of course, even as I scribbled it all down, I hardly have a clue about how it's all going to fit together. Oh well. Yay, creative process(?).

Some things I drew...

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Thank you, and have a nice day.
28 November 2009 @ 07:49 pm
I have nothing in my head but video games and the fact that I can't write reviews on SU (the interface-changing bastards they are... *shakes a fist*). I'm thinking that this has something to do with the fact that it is taking me forever to fill in one job application.

Every time I start filling in the 'Work Experience' section, my brain wants to instantly play a slideshow of all the things I did wrong on that particular job, even if some of it wasn't particularly my fault. No one understands that I have word/visual memory like psychics claim to be clairvoyant by touch: It's instant and I can't stop it. I can only distract myself with pretty colors and jaunty song, as it were.

*brikd... too many reasons to name*

That said, I have begun to scale The Eternal Tower in Phantasy Star Zero. 101 floors of why you should not get addicted to dungeon crawlers. And yet, here I am. Lvl 35 Cast Hunter with a team full of NPC nitwits fighting through what may just be Mother Trinity's last laugh. Even from the dead (Or semi-dead, depending on how you think about the missions just before the tower), she taunts, teases, and basically pulls a slight Eversion on your tail. I know the messages she leaves bring a chill to my spine. "Don't you miss the ground, foolish human?" >.>... <.<... I'm surprised that the floors haven't slowly turned black and red. Every ten floors, the ground gets farther and farther away through nice, big windows, too... Then again, I'm only 30-ish floors in. They might be saving the real scare-factor for around level 70 or so. :P... At a rate of 30-something floors a night, if I keep going at this rate I'll be done in about three or four more days (granting that I keep gaining a level for every five-or-so floors like I have been). Which is good, because I haven't hit the difficulty spike yet and I've had to re-evaluate what I consider a good weapon because of the monotony of the rooms so far... 9_9...

In other news, I want a pet rat. And I shall name him Roadkill. *brikd for the obscure SEGA joke* Some people would balk at the idea, but I think they're awesome. The only foreseeable problem I have is keeping myself from buying-up the ferret toy section in PetSmart. :P

Thank you, and have a nice day.
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Computer went insane. Decided that it couldn't do simple thing like scan a picture at 72dpi and load internet pages that were mostly text. Long story and lots of tears later, I reformatted and finally got the thing to recognize the wifi card just last night... ... ...

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Sooooooo, how y'all doin'?

*briked for general stupidity*

Let's see... Oh, I got a new game. Scratch that: I was given a new game. Nothing better than a birthday gift about two/three weeks early. You know, I'm thinking I should be thankful, but I'm also thinking that this is going to ruin my general work-flow. Meh.

In ANY case, any of you schmucks have Phantasy Star Zero, my FC is 2063-9248-8783. My main is a Fonewman by the name of Angelic. I have a Hucast (K4h0s) and a Humar (Willow), but I only started them to get all of the plots. Which are all starkly different from one another, which inspires me to write/draw a comic that ties them together better. (Damnit, SEGA, there's a cap on creativity that, when passed, just makes you look silly...) Meh, I'm weird that way.

Also, Ogi is awesome.

Dood... robot head in the snow not phased by being a robot head in the snow. Awesome, yes? X3

He just is. If this were an anime (which it practically is barring the actual gameplay and such), he'd probably die off about mid-third-act. Most cool characters do...

Thank you, and have a nice day.
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Current Music: Mt. Freeze - PKMN Mystery Dungeon
28 October 2009 @ 07:53 pm
It's almost November. I'm not sure what it is about this time of year, but I always feel like a horrible human being. Maybe it's the lack of sunlight in a day or the lower temperatures, but something just makes me want to find a hole and hide for a really long time.

*can't help thinking that something is missing...*

I have nothing in my head. Do I want this? Will it make anything better? It's true that one has to have a clear head to 'get things done', but I was kinda used to the voices. All I hear is computer fans and the occasional car or plane from outside. Where are you, little guys in my head? Come back. I miss you...

I was up until about 6. AM. Plotting something to write for NaNoWriMo. I don't know why. I don't have much else to do. And maybe the polished outcome will actually be wroth something.

My little brother visited today. I guess PT at ToysRUs and Five&Below wasn't enough for food this week. He told me about an opening at the Barnes & Noble near the F&B, and I figured, "Why the hell not." So that's what I'm doing tonight after I write.

What I'd really like to fecking know is where this sucka lives. I keeep thinking it about an hour after he leaves every stinkin' time. But that's a rant for later.

I started looking at deviantArt for something more than art and really bad critiques. The chat system isn't too bad, but it's more of the same junk that I stopped doing human interaction for. Really odd mix of emos, wierdos, and whiners. Needless to say, I think I fit right in.

*briked for putting herself down*

I just want to relax right now... I just want to... I just...

19 October 2009 @ 04:16 pm
You know, I almost forgot I was on this site... o-o

*briked for saying almost; you completely forgot, you twit...*

It's all good. Not like anything really happened. I'm still job hunting. I'm still drawing things. And I'm still bat-shit insane.

I think I'm going to change my theme. Paintjob needs a touch up, you know. I like green, but it needs need a new shade of Jenn, as it were.

*hums and dances like an idiot* ... i wanna make a su-pah son-ic man outta YOU-OOO-OOO-OOoooOOOOOooooOOOOO!!!!

Ahem... You didn't see that. :P What you do see is what I drew over the past week or so...

Two Jumbo-Sized piccys, comin' up!Collapse )

Oh, Flash, how I love thee. Let me count the ways...
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Current Music: Kurrel the Raven - The Human Tail